well so far, this day feels like any other...
I woke up and gently squeezed my right inner thigh with my left hand. Something I do every morning, to see how much fat is there. It's the first thing I do, before my eyes are open or I'm even totally concious.
I say this to point out my preoccupation with my weight, and hence food. Because for me, one is the key to the others door...
When I refer to feeling fat, or having fat on me, it is with no insult intended. I use these terms strictly for descriptive purpose. When I refer to feeling fat, it is to bring attention to my own insecurities...I am trying to address my own non-acceptance of my beautiful body, at any shape or size, short, tall, fat, or thin. And in doing so, I hope to offer hope for others who are trying to do the same.
So this is my goal at present:
To eat what I want, when I want.
To remind myself that it is safe to eat.
To trust that my body knows what to do with the food that I consume.
To trust in this process.
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