POST 14

Yesterday's post was about remembering my childhood relationship with food.  I started at a young age, sneaking and stealing food, usually sugar of some sort.  I would binge on sugary foods, till I felt sick and could eat no more.  I used this bingeing to distance myself from feelings of sadness and fear.  But this overeating , even from such a young age, made me feel helpless and hopeless and afraid of food and what it can do to my body.

So today's blog is dedicated to creating a new relationship with food.  A relationship based on trust and a belief that I can eat what I want, when I want.  I no longer need to use food to mask my emotions.  I now feel safe feeling my emotions. I no longer need to use food to comfort me, as I find healthy ways to comfort myself.

I hope to raise my own children (when I have them) in such a way, that they feel comfortable eating what they want, when they want.  I believe that this attitude is the key for finding a healthy balance of eating and puts the belief of power back into oneself.

It is empowering to trust in your bodies innate wisdom. It is empowering to feel that you may eat what you want, when you want, without being terrified that you will be harming yourself  in some way. 

I have always feared that if I eat what I want when I want it, I will eat terribly unhealthy food and copious amounts of it, doing myself harm.  I now am seeing past this fear, and recognizing that fear is all that was!

I look forward to finding the balance and providing a healthy example for others, especially children.  I look forward to raising children who believe that their relationship with food is healthy, and providing them with the tools to honour and trust their bodies.

Wish me luck!