POST 12

Today, on day 12 of my journey from a fear of food and what it can do to my figure, I am once again focusing on food freedom.

I am yet again, reminding myself that it is ok to eat what I want, when I want.  That my body, in its innate wisdom, will steer me towards what it needs.  I just need to trust in the process of choosing to give my body back her power.  Instead of putting my power in external factors like calorie counting, dieting and over excersizing in relation to fear.

I feel scared today. And sad that my thighs are rubbing, that my tummy sticks out and that so many of my gorgeous clothes aren't fitting.

I felt really tempted today, to make a drastic change.  I thought about restricting my food intake and envisioned long runs on the beach as my solution to feeling better about myself.

Instead, here I am writing this blog.  Yet again, having spent another day eating what I wanted when I wanted it.

I think I can say that I'm proud of myself for facing my fear and not backing down.

I don't know much, but one of my experiences has been that when I face the very thing I am afraid of, I always come out ontop.  I always learn something new about myself and I always feel that I've grown somehow from the experience.

So here's to another day of not having all the answers, and feeling fear but facing it head on as opposed to turning away and falling into old, familiar and comfortable habits that have a proven track record of failing me in the end anyway(such as my dieting and over excersizing.)

Please wish me luck and send me some lovin'!