POST 25

This weekend, I attended a conference in the city.

I drove the 2 hour drive alone, knowing that I would most likely not know another soul at this 2 day event.  And I was right. Not only did I not know anyone, but it was alot of information that was way above my head. 

I felt really outside of my comfort zone pretty much the whole time.  All of my senses were really active and I didn't have much time to think about food on the first day of the conference.

On the second day, if you can believe it, my debit card wasnt working so I was unable to buy any food all day.  Into the afternoon, I was pretty hungry, but again, because there was so much going on around me, I didnt notice too much.

It really made me realize that when I try new things, and step outside my comfort zone, food isn't such a priority to me.  In my everyday life, food is my favorite way to treat myself and make myself feel good..."Oh it's friday night so I'm gong to buy a big bag of chips to celebrate"...."I've got to pay some bills at the mall so I'm going to make it fun by treating myself to a chai latte." and on and on.

I also found, how well I can function on very little food.  That is a real eye opener for me as I have such a hard time with not eating when I am full.  I actually find it difficult to connect with the feeling of my tummy being full...I tend to keep eating till I feel sick and then use the sickness as a gage for being full.

But this weekend, my tummy was hungry, but I still got through the day.  That makes me feel empowered, to know that I can be outside my comfort zone, without access to food, and still be ok.

If you read my past blogs, you will know how much comfort and safety I derive from a full belly so this is a big realization for me.

Hip hip hooray, I'm learning today!